Oh heyyyy...

Been a while, huh? I'm actually in college now... I use capital letters too. I'm a whole new person. Hah! I found this when I was "Google-ing" myself to see what embarrassing stuff comes up if one were to type my name into such a search engine and was reading my two lonely little posts and laughing at myself. I remember sitting on my bathroom floor writing those posts! I remember thinking, things are going to change for me--they just have to! I am here to tell you... they haven't...

Was that a little anti-climactic? Sorry about it. I was just denied entrance into the Theatre Program here at Florida State for a third time. You heard me right, THREE! I have applied and been denied on three separate occasions. I am really winning, aren't I? As of right now, I'll be attending FSU for my sophomore year but after that... Yo no se. I mean, technically, I could re-apply (a fourth freaking time) but I'm not entirely sure if I wish to be a part of a program that has told me "no" so many times already... Isn't that supposed to be my hint that I need to look for somewhere else to study this craft? Hmmmm, we'll see. I need to start looking for other schools. Though I'll probably have to stay in Florida, I can't tell you how much I would LOVEEEE to go to California. I just want to be on the Disney Channel. I know that's not really aiming very high on the "real actor and actress" scale but it's where I want to be, and I don't care if you think it's cheesy or dumb and not ambitious because it's the exact opposite!! You may not want to be on Disney Channel, you may not even want to watch it, but when I say the name "Miley Cyrus" you KNOW who I'm talking about. When I say "The Jonas Brothers" you KNOW who they are. I just want to be known. I don't care if I'm adored by the upper echelon's of the media world, I don't care if I'm not nominated for an Oscar for my groundbreaking role as a beaten and abused woman determined to get her kids out of the ghetto!! I just want to be a role model to millions of little nuggets!! I want them to want my autograph! I want them to tune into my show. I want them to come and see my concerts. They're the loyal ones anyways. Adults grow tired of the current fads. Children stay true to them. Hellooo, we're still celebrating Santa Claus, are we not? And why is he still tied to Christmas? BECAUSE HE'S FREAKING SANTA CLAUS, THAT'S WHY!! No child wants to stop believing in him!!! That's the same concept with Disney. Yes, they may sometimes cater their scripts wayyyyyy too much to what they THINK is going to get the laugh, but you know what? In the end, all of them are happy... Well Demi Lovato isn't--wasn't... I don't actually know anymore. That girl is like 10 kinds of crazy, she was happy once and then spiraled out of control... I'm so sorry to that girl she punched (though when I heard about it, people were acting like she round house kicked the girl in the face, but whatever, I digress).

Long story short, I'm exactly where I was two years ago, and I'm tired of it!!! Disney, here I come!! Unless you feel that I am better suited for your show Ryan Murphy, because if that's the case, then by all means! I can definitely be happy singing random vocal trills behind Lea Michelle in Glee. I promise, I won't complain. Being a character that is a nobody is a lot different from being a nobody that is a nobody.