You know what sucks TOTAL ass? Everything. I find myself dreaming of a reality that I don't even know exists for me. I see now, more than ever, that I am not the girl that gets everything that she's always dreamed of... you know? I've come to the obvious conclusion that one of my favorite movies is Pride and Prejudice and even though they spend the whole time basically detesting each other until the end, I still can't help be realize that I may never have that. At least not with the type of person that I wish to have it with... And I know that that sounds selfish of me, and I know it sounds stuck up, but why should my hopes as far as a guy are concerned be any more impossible than anyone else's?! Isn't it supposed to be about the person and not their looks?--well, I guess that's a pot-meet-kettle type of situation now isn't it...? I don't know what I'm saying. It's late and I'm 20 and I'm alone and I hate it. I'm either thinking about my extremely unrealistic dreams of happiness in what I want to do with my life, or I'm thinking about my unrealistic dreams of happiness in men. One way or the other, I'm unhappy... This blog just seems to be a place where I come to whine about the same shit every. single. day. I know, and I'm sorry--I guess it doesn't matter though, it's not like anyone reads it. Ha.
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